Whiskey Invocations

Interesting day today, realized that sometimes its better to be alive than dead!

The reason why I mention this and even bring this up as a topic on my blogspiz-ot is cause the thought of death has lingered in my mind for quite sometime now, as it has for all of us, don't front! I'm not that only one in here that's pondered it.

Movement from one extreme to the next is indeed a feat, a dizzying one at that, nevertheless one that we all come to face in many different extents of this extremely funny game called "life". Those who have the ability to move faster than others doesn't say more for them and less for those who tend to move slower, everything happens for a reason and people move at their own pace, you know.

My pace, for most who know me and know what I've been going through lately is probably a lot slower than they would prefer, but what can I do, I move when I move. I guess the catalyst for this new found movement came about through the death of someone that I knew of. SARA (r.i.p). I didn't know her well, but the times that we passed each other at the office, something in me just screamed LIFE, and HAPPINESS, and CARING WARM BEING!!! she was all these things wrapped in one life form, she will be missed. Her passing somehow bought about life in many. It was a somber vibe today at the office, OBVIOUSLY! but I couldn't help but to think that she was/is still around, gracing the joint with that friendly smile. Her behaviour and calmness was and still is so soothing.

I'm not really sure how I look at life, I'm even less sure how I look at death now a days as well, the 2 complicate and compliment each other at the same time, it's funny... I often wonder what the day after the day I die will be like, will my real friends stand out, what will my family do? Setai?????? will her curls straighten? Will the "lisztomania" kick in to all that knew me, picture of my face on t-shirts, (lol)... I hope not, I'm not that big of a deal.

Can you dig it?

Peace - J

"I can't see the sunshine"

I've been trying to put together a guide of some sorts, one in which will connect the 2. What "2" am I speaking about right? I bet you'd like to know. Well, when I say 2, I mean the 2 genders of this world. Men and Women. An impossible feat many would say. I used to have this oddball theory that men and women should not exist on the same planet. We should have a system of spaceships that fly us to each other's planets when certain things are needed that the other sex can provide, moving a couch or a fridge, cutting grass, and on the flip, cooking, cleaning crap like that. When sex is needed, well that's obvious, jump on the ship and get it poppin'. That idea was always shot down, so much to the point that I even began to think it was fucking ridiculous, and then I ask myself -  I say "self, is there a way for men and women that don't always get along to get along all the time?" Don't worry, I didn't answer myself, that would be... INSANE 'eh, but since the question was proposed, even though it was self-proposed, still, its a question nonetheless right? it deserves and answer, so I'm working on one, trying to sort all this shit out.

*ISSUES
Why do people yell and scream at one another?, why do people shut down when their asked questions? Anger is a serious emotion that must be contact, I'm beginning to think that anger can be a useful tool when used properly and released at the right moment. To get someone so upset to the point that they're breaking shit and smashing crap has got to say something about the effect the person has on the one that's all pissed right? I think so, I mean there's no reason to just go NUTS/APESHIT on someone, there has to be foundation.

*ISSUES
And for those that don't communicate well, there has to be a reason for that as well then 'eh, has to be. Why is communication hard to do, especially with someone that you feel comfortable with, someone that you know and love and talk to about some of the most ridiculous things in the day to day exchange? Why shut down when its time to talk to you "friend" about an issue that you "friend" deems IMPORTANT?

A friend of mine mentioned a few reads that I should give a try, after have this discussion with her she figured I was having relationship issues, (DID I TELL YOU MY FRIEND IS A FUCKING SCHOLAR? - RIIIIIIGHT) anyway, she gave some interesting advice, as she herself had been dealing with issues similar to my own, so it was relative.

That conversation that was held made me realize that there are so many issues that go on in the world that are relative amongst all human beings, which lead me to further think, "if complete strangers and or friends alike deal with issues that are similar, why are we so different." The world is just a funny fucking place, and seeing as to how theres 2 completely different genders that have to dwell on it peacefully, that within itself is life, along with a few other things of course, working, schooling, raising kids, creating family and friendship bonds, all these items are elements in life.

I don't know, I guess I'm trying to peace a few things together to make this all make sense, one tends to get this way when he or she reaches a point in their life when questions arise, questions created by reaction, reaction that derived from an instance, an instance that was born from just that, a question, maybe a question that shouldn't have been asked cause it was infact never answered, or maybe it should have been, this blog post would have gone a totally different if that had been the case.

 - Peace J

time to travel ???

so what do you do about it when it seems as though it's over, but something deep down in the bottom of you heart and soul is telling you something else 

what do you do ?

ignore it? or pay attention to?  age old example of life being extremely simple, you either do or you don't, it can only go one of the 2 ways right, so which one is it, what do you do?  well, to determine what you should do you probably need to first think of what the possible outcomes of the actions taken will be, right?  so think, think deeply and make it count, do you call her and get it right, or do you say goodnight to her (via text message) for the very last time?  what do you?

leave love behind, possible bliss, eternal happiness, leave it all behind to fend for itself, forget about it?  move forward, is it really time to travel?  ironic that the world travel comes in to play now when it wasn't a real option a few days ago.  ironic how now, when things are supposed to glamorous, she's there and your here, life is like that at times.  so what do you do?  what can be done? what would make sense?  think of all the options, the consequences, pros and cons, put it together, think it through, plot and plan, make it count...

however, keep in mind that you do have the right to wait till Wednesday..